Greetings from Massachusetts! Where I’m using this (hopefully) once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to, in the words of my good friend Brian Skull, take advantage of this situation, before it takes advantage of me

(Brian, in addition to being a solid Krav Maga practitioner, is a tattoo artist…he inked the three skulls on my shoulder, which remind me of where I’m going, eventually, and to make the best use of my finite time upon this Earth)

When I left San Francisco earlier in early March, things were nearly normal

During my time on the coast over which the sun rises, I’m choosing to do what I was taught during one of the most challenging periods of my life…in 2007, when I chose to get clean off meth.

Focus on spirituality, self-improvement, and service to others

Thinking that there was a time—and it wasn’t so long ago—when it seemed unimaginable

That someone like you or me could enter place like High Desert State Prison, like I did during February’s final week

And throw your arms around an incarcerated man I’ll call Abe, embracing him in a big bear hug

Times do change! All things must pass

Abe and I would never have met, had I not first distanced myself from anyone who might hug me…from society itself

In 2007, in a flophouse hotel, I performed a form of self-quarantine

The sun setting, rising, and setting again, me all the while hunched over a crumbling table strewn with meth alchemy

(I attempted to craft sorcerer’s techniques, to conjure up meth in a glass ashtray…thus the label “tweaker” truly applied to me)

Humans like Abe teach me to stand up straight…to use my past addiction as a source of strength, to bring me closer to humanity

Abe is one of a percentage of men in High Desert Prison who choose to work very hard…despite the unimaginable challenges presented by their surroundings… 

To earn the designation “Maverick”

By dedicating and immersing themselves in the Hustle 2.0 curriculum: employment, entrepreneurism, and personal development

I served as a volunteer with with the incredible Hustle 2.0 team, and an amazing group from The Jordan Harbinger Show (including Jordan himself)

Jordan’s podcast was awarded “Best of 2018” by Apple, and is one of the most downloaded new shows

His guests have included Malcomb Gladwell, Kobe Bryant, and Laila Ali (Muhammad’s daughter)…among many, many others

When Bryant was 11, he played in a summer basketball league…and failed to score a single point all season…seven years later, he was playing in the NBA (you can read more in my previous blog)

Ali entered boxing against the wishes of her father—perhaps the most celebrated boxer in history (and one of the most celebrated human beings)—and went on to record a 24-0 career and secure a unified crown

Gladwell wrote, among much else, a book called David and Goliath: Underdogs, Misfits and the Art of Battling Giants…which I read recently, and discovered that we may well have more potential than we believe, when it comes to overcoming great odds

Jordan Harbinger chose to celebrate his 40th birthday at High Desert State Prison, serving Abe and the other Mavericks

Jordan brought along two busloads of his friends and fans…men and women who were successful business executives, entrepreneurs…persons with families, leaders in their communities

Many had never been inside a prison—all had many, many options for how to spend their time, options which could keep them distant from anything like a maximum-security facility

Yet they made a choice to travel to Reno, NV, and from there ride giant busses, 90 minutes, to inside the bleakest walls

To work closely with Mavericks, labeled by society as the “very worst of the very worst”

Convicted of violent crimes…murder, in many cases

The volunteers didn’t necessarily know what they were headed into…yet they brought their best selves to the table…and, like so many who volunteer for Hustle 2.0, later reported their lives transformed

Surrounded by dozens of men who dress in prison blues every day of their lives, with “PRISONER” clearly stencil-labeled on their backs

I had chosen to wear my fringed-leather jacket

I wear it out of concern for those I encounter: How will people know I’m having a midlife crisis, if I’m not wearing something like a fringed leather jacket?

(That’s a joke: If anything is certain these days, it’s that I’m not having a midlife crisis)

The fringed leather, while risking political incorrectness, is symbolic

I—like so many of us—have known life on the fringes

Many of you find yourselves living that way today (voluntarily or otherwise)

If you weren’t willing to live life on the fringes: Would you spend your time and effort volunteering in a prison, learning from humans like Abe?

Or reading lessons learned from someone (me) who did…and who also fought his way back from devastating methamphetamine addiction?

What other fringes are we prepared to live on?

Abe and the other Mavericks teach us: If we can choose to discover that behind bars, beat the hearts of human beings? Imagine the amazing discoveries we’re capable of making, about the potentials of our own hearts

It’s important to stay connected now more than ever, so the other day I phoned my first-ever meditation teacher, Marty Diamond

Over a decade ago, his teachings kept me distant from acting upon my fantasy: of taking a nighttime walk to the Golden Gate Bridge, gazing at my beloved San Francisco, and leaping to the waters below

The other day, Marty taught me something too, which inspired me to positive reflection, and which I’m passing along to you, in the hope it may somehow serve you:

Everything starts with a choice…we (you/me/everyone) have two choices in life

We can chose to face the sun

To bask in its warmth, rejoice in its light, take comfort in it’s Heavenly radiance

Or, we can turn our backs to the sun…

And stare at our shadow on the ground

Which will we choose?

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Thanks to the Mavericks of Hustle 2.0, Jordan Harbinger, and the other volunteers…and you, my amazing readers…I’m choosing to stay turned towards the sun

If we can discover that some of the people incarcerated in prison, whom society labels as the “very worst of the very worst”, are some of the best teachers we can hope to have?

Perhaps we can realize too: That even when we turn to the sun, to find it obscured by clouds

It doesn’t mean the sun has stopped shining!

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5 Responses

    1. Hi Lesa, thanks so much for your comment! As always, you remain an inspiration and a ray of hope and goodness. I appreciate you sharing the post, and sharing your amazing spirit!

  1. I enjoyed reading. Thank you. Often I find myself doing just that – turning my back to the sun. But that is a choice, and I can chose to turn towards the sun. It’s good to remember that even though it may look obscured – it’s still shining!

  2. You make some beautiful insights here, Ed! The symbol of a fringed jacket will stay with me forever. And I love the way you describe this opportunity as a way of either turning away or turning towards. I’ve heard people refer to it as a time for ‘we,’ not ‘me.’ For yours truly, it’s a time to make myself of use to my friends, clients, colleagues and neighbors.

    When you describe those society has labelled as ‘the worst of the worst’ as the best teachers, it reminded me of a philosophy I’m employing recently and think you might like. I’m reminding myself that those quirks that make people hard to work with or be around (that gain bristles around a crisis like this) are the shadows of their strengths. People who are aggressive are showing what they care about. Angry people are simply hopeful. Etc. It’s helped me bring more empathy into this strange chapter.

    Hoping for the best for you and yours, brother:)

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