Ed’s Second Chances

To attain knowledge, add things every day. To attain wisdom, remove things every day ― Lao Tzu I’m proud of many things I’ve accomplished in life since getting clean off meth Achieving a dream of publishing a book, certainly, and my renewed dedication to getting it into the hands of as many readers as possible  […]

Fair & Second Chances

Thanks to Defy Ventures, I recently had an opportunity for several sessions with a mental health professional…she diagnosed me with Anxiety Disorder(!) Not surprising, as the better part of twenty years of my life involved shouldering the burden of being the target of a vast law enforcement conspiracy* against me *Of course, the “conspiracy” might’ve […]

Ashburnham (MA) Police Department

Many thanks to the APD for hosting my talk, “From Addict to Awardee: How Persons in Law Enforcement Helped Me Transform From Criminal Activity to Community Service” Shown with Chief Loring Barrett (center) and Lt. Chris Conrad: I could write about the talk: but local journalist Doneen Durling does a better job. Read her article […]

Serpentine

Hello amazing readers! In the weeks to come, we’ll be playing with the format of Meditations on Meth, to make it of the greatest possible value to you. Suggestions are welcome! Simply email me at ed.kressy@icloud.com Shameless Reposting from My Facebook Page Here’s a little lesson from nature for you When I was a kid, […]

Marx

Five men had the greatest influence on my spiritual/transformative life, in my first years clean off meth  (more on that in a minute) But first: Do you ever feel you’ve been cursed with a certain personality trait? Impulsiveness, impatience, impertinence…any number of “im-s”? My resentful nature cursed me If you treated me poorly, I resented […]

Stairways/10K

Thank you, readers of Meditations on Meth! And thank you GUS (God/Universe/Spirit…the name I learned from Michael Disend, my first meditation teacher Michael, along with Pat Maguire, saved my life…by convincing me that my own suicide would affect me negatively in the afterlife…from there, I went on to understand my remaining alive could benefit others, too) […]

Two Important Ways to Help Someone Struggling with Addiction (Part II)

In a previous blog, we described an addicted person as being a tornado A vortex of poor choices, selfish acts, and thoughtless words—borne from deep pain (“hurt people hurt people”)—blazing a path of destruction (this described me, at least…to put it mildly…when I was struggling with addiction) We, as Supporters, must not get sucked in…and, […]

Boolean Operators

Thanks to reader Kris M, for suggesting a blog about the demons in my life today How I hear disembodied voices, entertain ideas of government conspiracies swirling around me…experience what many would term crushing depression, anxiety In the past, I’ve hesitated to write about the above, for fear of coming across as self-pitying For fear […]

Victory

Today—as I write this—is an anniversary On this day, in 2003 As methamphetamine psychosis settled in like thorny thickets around my mind After I’d begun ambushing those I knew, with talk of my home being bugged, people stalking me, threats from the disembodied voices  A family member and some friends brought me to the Emergency […]

Smiles

The mind is a wonderful servant, and a terrible master —Robin Sharma As I write this*, it’s early Eastern Easter Sunday, in my childhood home in Massachusetts (*I’ve been using our current circumstances to write a blog or two ahead) Sun and son (me) have just risen I’m grateful to have lungs to take in […]