After I quit meth in 2007, I was inspired by, among much else, a book called No Angel: My Harrowing Undercover Journey to the Inner Circle of the Hells Angels Jay Dobyns authored it: writing about his career as an undercover agent with the Bureau of Alcohol, Tobacco, Firearms and Explosives (ATF) Dobyns played football […]

New Year, Rehab

“Wherever you have friends that’s your country, and wherever you receive love, that’s your home.”—Tibetan saying After I quit meth in 2007, my home was the Henry Ohlhoff House, a rehab facility Others inspired me to allow myself to receive love, and I began to pursue my life’s dream of becoming a writer… I started […]


In December 2000, a plane touched down in San Francisco Aboard, a man (me) returning from his trip to Bangkok Where I’d spent some time training with professional kickboxers As my plane descended, I was on the cusp of accomplishing great things Not great in comparison to a person who, today, is a hero of mine […]

Windmills (A Day Inside Prison with Defy Ventures)

Tilting at windmills is an English idiom that means attacking imaginary enemies. The expression is derived from Don Quixote, and the word “tilt” in this context comes from jousting.— Wikipedia The Defy Ventures bus travelled south on the 101 freeway, not long after dawn, with me and twenty or so other volunteers on board It was last Thursday, and we were […]

High Desert State Prison

Tom Kubik Photography

The Holiday Season is, for me—like for many—a time to be tempted to worry Should I be more focused on how much money is in my bank account? My Roth IRA? Fortunately I’ve learned that like the ancient philosopher taught: none of us, through worrying, can add a single hour to our lives On a recent […]